Today is not a good day. It isn't a bad one either.
But nothing specific going on, just worn out.
Worn out psychologically.
I feel as if I am doing nothing and feeling overwhelmed all at the same time.
I want to travel.
I want to help.
I want to disappear into the woods.
I want to walk the train tracks and camp out along the way.
I want to go to the beach.
I want to run basketball camps for poor children.
I want to go and stay for a month at a time.
I want unlimited funds so I can go where I want, do what I want, any time that I want.
It is selfish, I know, but I want to be able to give my time and money to those I don't see every single day of my life.
I know I am making a difference, at least I hope I am, here, but the monotony of the every day is....tiring.
I have tried for the last two years to be positive in negative situations, that even that is "old".
I am tired today of the same, of the me, of who I am and what I can and cannot do.
But tomorrow is another day, heck, I may even be better in a couple hours.
You make of life what you want it to be.
I am tired right now, but I know how special and blessed I am to have the family I do, the job I do, the friends that I do.
Even typing this out has helped some.
Some.
