You know, I have a set of ideals I try to live by and many people think they may be unattainable, but I don't.
They are harder than the average person, I am sure, but they are nothing out of the realm of possibility of happening.
But I fail often and though it may feel good to do so sometimes, ultimately, I feel badly.
I feel badly because I am trying to be a good example for many especially when hostile situations occur.
The other night, I reacted in a way I am not proud of.
I reacted in a way that probably deserved the way I reacted, but not with the words I used.
I believe in righteous anger, I think some of my reaction was done because of that, but I should have chosen different words.
People may say bad things about me, they may think bad things about me, and I don't really like it, but I understand it can happen; however when someone attacks those close to me, I see it as something to horrific that it must be confronted.
But there's a better way than I did the other night.
And I feel such a hypocrite.
