What's in it for Me?

Yes, another post about this.  Just wanted to remind myself that a thousand years for God is like a day, or 3-4 hours according to Psalm 90, take a read.  That means our lives last as long as the snap of the fingers.

If you believe that, then nothing, and I mean nothing, revolves around you.  If you are thinking "what's in it for me?", you need to remember that we all live similar lives and in the end, we all die.  We cannot escape it.

"What's in it for me?"  Nope.  "What is it all for?"  Look inside and consider what your relationship with God is like.  I promise if you can get that straightened out, your life will improve.  It won't be easy, and there will be plenty of down times, but you will find a happiness that you didn't think you could find.

True happiness is understanding that you are not the center of the universe but that there is something that is.

Anyone Else LIke This?

There seems to be a constant...something...inside of me that keeps me from feeling completely fulfilled.  I will say that my relationship with Christ has helped so much.  I used to fill up the hole with alcohol, basketball, or something else, but now I know I have him to walk with.

But many times I feel that even though I have a beautiful/great wife, wonderful/healthy/athletic children, a great job with great students, help with a great coach at a great school coaching the sport I love the most, I still feel I am chasing something some days.  I feel under attack and wonder if it would not be better just escaping from this world.  Whether it be in the mountains of Montana or just dropping out and doing the bare minimum.

What is it?  What am I lacking?  Why can I not be happy and content in all things especially when things in my life are so wonderful?  Again, I have absolutely no idea where I would be without my relationship with Jesus.  Probably like many of my Hunter forefathers...full blown alcoholics.

Then there is the guilt I feel when I feel sorry for myself.  There are so many people, soooooo many who have it worse than I do and would love to have my life.

But I realize that I am this way.  I realize that it is something that I deal with.  I am not hiding it, and I try not to portray anything on this blog other than who I am.  This is me.  I struggle some days....a lot.  Even though I am so blessed by God with so many gifts.

Finishing Up a Book

I have not read a book in awhile, had not found anything that interested me.  Yet, when I recently posted a pic of MLB Josh Hamilton and his bat with scripture, I was pointed in the direction of this book.

The book details Hamilton's early life when he was a baseball phenom, his #1 pick, and then the downfall as he became a drug addict.  I just finished where he is on his way back to Major League Baseball after cleaning up because of a loving Grandmother and his personal relationship with Jesus Christ.

Looking forward to the end of the book, and praying that Hamilton stays the path as drugs are evil and his fight will continue until the day he dies.

Someday

He wants to play so bad, he cannot stand it.

For Sure